I died once agian today........... well yesterday... (I update at odd times here)... but I died. I lost one of my bestfriends today. We have drifted apart and I know longer feel like I know who she is. We are too different now. And I will miss the way things used to be.... Its hard to believe that things will ever go back to the way they were but she swears that it will all be the same again. I don't know.

Me and James.... er James and I were talking about some of my problems. He was getting angry because I wouldn't let him help I'm scared to. But whatever I'm already screwed anyways. I'm dead.

Kelly